Tum ko dekha to ek khayal aaya

Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is most important. ~Carl Reiner

I see myself in the mirror each day and fall for my reflection there. Rarely, I feel that there is an ego reflecting in the image. It shows my vanity clearly. The importance of being there for impressing others overtake the real me in public life.

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is around you. This had been, has been and will be only truth about love. To accept the world as it is. Desire to capture, possess or change others is self defeating in love. Life, love and understanding are qualities to be admired and incorporated in yourself for enjoying the life.

Any relationship lasts that is rooted in friendship. Atleast we can speak our hearts out to them. Some persons are complete strangers or acquaintance for us. You can't express about yours feeling to them for the fear of losing that illusion of closeness.

One day, I look at the person and I feel something more than I did the second before. The decay in relationship starts there. Now, the person who was just a face a moment ago is now turned suddenly the only person I can ever imagine myself with. And there is an one side affection that makes me feel like the whole world is complete. This act happens unconsciously. I take it as dilemma whether mind surrenders or it creates an illusion. Every time I look that unknown, it makes me to want it even more. Is it a desire for achieving something or an invisible bond between us.

All plans and pre preparation goes waste at the time of expression. Fear of being ignored, ridiculed or even broken comes in front of the eyes. And how I will react on dejection clouds the mind. Its impossible to tell yourself to stop wanting someone when the something inside rebel against it!

All rational thoughts end at that point of time. Even dreams are manipulated through mind or object of desire. Can you love same person all your life at each moment ? I will say no. Still, How is it possible that I feel nostalgia for a person I never knew so closely ? Why I desire for a person that can't come with me in the life ? Why do we let someone become priority in our life when we aren't even an option for considering to them ?

This is a purely fictional post and not related to me by any means... Don't sit on my head for originality or piracy !

Anbe Sivam

Love is god, that's meaning of Tamil title written here. I exist within me only. Others exist because one imagine others do. Otherwise, other is not here. No past and future, only present exist. And, there is nothing to give and take in the world. Only to share with the others. All relations, friends, acquaintance and strangers are just a small part of your life. Don't take any talks of culture, religion and civilization sincerely. They are decaying with each moment of time. Death is most lovable part of life. It can come in conscious or unconscious state of mind. Love is only truth everywhere. Just be spontaneous and devoid of mind in relationships to God or others. Mind is manipulative and will peel love like onions infinitely. There is enough room for everyone in the heart if you love. Spirituality is not a separate way or field, its just life when our stomachs are filled. We are alone deep down and can feel it naturally. So be natural, free of ambition, past, future, comparison, beliefs. Just exist :)[I smiled first time on the blog today ] Ciao !

Baavra mann dekhne chala ek sapnaa

What mind divides through analysis, the heart unites through compassion. Now, there is a peace inside heart as the mind is working on my will. No more nostalgia, desires or ambition. The present will take all sorrows of past and worries of future. The calmness will lead towards silence. The awareness will increase and concentration efforts will reduce. Such is the statehood of awareness. The words coming out will not be manipulative by mind and all lines written before will loose its radiance. The struggle of writer inside you will vanish and only love will be in the air. You have to just stop observation and learn the art of watching, watching without any judgment. The ego raised by sexuality, greed and anger will dissolve. You will rise against repression and feel the joy of expression. You will laugh like mad even when no one else is around. And you will really mean it...