Eternal Feeling of a Moment

Devoid of all emotions,an empty heart at last;
Not a tinge of nostalgia,only quantum of solace.
Falling apart into unknown,may be darkness or light,
Finding myself engraved in the abysses.
Numb,excited are words of past life,
Me blessed or cursed by eternal loss of sensation.


Embraced by wind, earth,water and fire;
Yet,soul untouched by divine love.
Hollowness creeps around my shadows,
Mysticism of non existent just held me together.
Born to kiss the lips of the death,
Oh,cheers or mourn for doomsday.

Air India experience…

While going through Internet for Randy Pausch,i stumbled across one of the eye opener description about Air India.Before reading article,I became quite happy to see that he was an ITBHU alumni.Afterwards,i felt sorry for him.Narrator, Sharad V. Oberoi is pass out of 2005 batch of civil engineering.I think,my colleagues will remember it as a batch of person named MAKKU SHARMA. Ok,leave that stuff...Here is the link of the :Tour de Air India

Indian Premier League

Indian Premier League
Cricket is a game of more controversy than any other sports played in India. After so much debacle and speculation, I.P.L. has kicked off. My loyalty towards India is questioned for first time. I do not have interest in domestic matches but cannot ignore such mouth watering contest. I have to take sides and feeling of regionalism has just started. Whole country is in front of Television set and enjoying the brutal hitting of BB McCullum. Odds are against by bet,but i place my money on Bangalore Royal Challengers. Even SRK and Preity Zinta are enjoying with me in IPL due to high amount of money!!!!
Gear Up and enjoy a new version of Cricket Fever....

Do, what you can do Best.

I am a mediocre in all fields but hate this label. What is the purpose of pursuing a career in the field in which you cannot accomplish distinction? This basic question always haunt me from childhood days. I do not want to become part of the mob. There are more than 10,000-20,000 engineers graduating per year. Where do i stand in this rat race? What is my chance of success and way to achieve notable in this field?

To tell you the truth, I do not have any chances of either doing good or fair. I also know the reason, why? These four years in ITBHU has given me more than enough time to evaluate my capabilities and limitation. I am just good movie viewer, nothing else. Albeit, I had knowledge of success mantra. It is not the old hard work and dedication theory. For me hard work and dedication axiom is appropriate coinage, but that's not enough.

Creativity in your area of interest is primary ammunition for achieving goals. I had huge interest in watching movies. I want to become legendary director like Satyjit Ray, Andrei Tarkovsky, Akira Kurosowa etc. I treat cinema as an art not the entertainment. I spent/ invested my precious time of college in it. But world outside seems more complicated than inside. Still, I am unable to achieve anything due to lack of will power. I regret for two things in my life.

First, I have taken so much input by watching thousand films but not even making a silly amateurish piece of cinema. This habit of laziness will become reason of my fall. Second, I do not have courage to face the struggle and bet my career for unknown business. Fuck you and your natural talent,if you are not working on it.

I had a chat with our alumnus Varun Grover in 2nd year of graduation. He is a writer now in the field of cinema leaving behind his civil engineering career for his interest. He quoted to me in our single conversation in chat "writing, like any other skill, needs polishing". I had forgotten that priceless advice. I am sorry for that till now. I was struggling with my grades, life and everything in 3rd year of engineering but the mind was full of awesome ideas. For reaching vantage point, you need more than idea. You must develop a concept step by step. You cannot become Leo Tolstoy just by knowing all the words in dictionary. You have to be smart enough to arrange them in lucrative and thematic way to write an epic like 'War and Peace'. Hence I started to blog. This was first of my entrepreneurship. Creativity inside me was unleashed.

I am also thankful to Varun Murali and Kunal Sharma to offer me valuable inputs from time to time. Murali critically screwed for my grammar and applauded for my narration skill. That was big boost for me in starting. Kunal gives me an idea of theme and presentation of topic. One year has passed since then. I feel like pebble who is polished to become diamond. I want to apologize here for previous punchline. This statement is manipulated from a quote. I feel guilty for copying it. I have not still become creative enough to blow punch lines like that statement. Hindi is my mother tongue and for me English is like mother in law tongue. I am really working hard to improve it. English is my media of instruction rather than Hindi but authority in this language is missing.

Mine interpretation of one year of writing and 4 year of watching cinema is completely original. Writing skills require lot of input.You have to study a lot but selected material. Novels, poems, short stories with news articles are sources of high quality literature. For example, you cannot learn about ground realities of India through Stardust or Cosmopolitan magazine. References and recommondations must be taken from wise guys. This facts holds true regarding cinema also. You cannot comment on war films by watching movies like Border.

Efficiency of a person is measured by work output/Energy Input. I had to work hard not only to sustain high efficiency but high work output. Creativity, Originality and Interactiveness of my interest with others is now parameter to judge myself. Uff, original ending is different to write. I can state here any existing line but will quote a new-one from myself. Make yours life worthy of putting your footmarks in the history of human race.

PS:This blog is written on completion of 1 year of my blog.

Ajmer & Pushkar

I had completed my journey to 2 of the holiest places in India till 15th March.Khwaja Sharif at Ajmer & Brahma Sarover at Puskar were these two places.I had planned with Vijay to visit or wander in different places of India together.So the starting of multiple stage program began at Ajmer.I had taken Night out to prepare myself for tour.Train was direct and reaching Varanasi to Ajmer in 24 hours.It was much better option than catching Marudhar express for Jaipur and changing train for Ajmer.Itinerary was ready and so were us.Bond and Chandu dropped us at Lanka in the morning.There was perfect cleaning of road from railway station to BHU due to upcoming arrival of Dr. Manmohan Singh.He was the chief guest in the 90th convocation of BHU.
Arrival of Prime minister in university was of no concern to us.For most of guys, it is a minor incident as face to face interaction or conversation to PM or full day vacation on this occasion is not possible.

Journey till Agra was fine.In the night,there came a minor problem of food. Like any other train of Rajasthan,this train was already missing Pantry Car.Hence,we somehow managed food at Agra in 15 minute stoppage time.At 6:30,we were at Ajmer.After renting a room,we were ready for the trip.

Ajmer is a popular pilgrimage for the Muslims due to Dargah Sharif-tomb of Sufi saint Khwaja Monuddin Chisti.We visited the tomb during span of 1 hour. Here we cloaked the fabric and tied the thread with asking for a wish. I will came back on fulfillment of my wish and unknit the thread. After that,we left Ajmer for Puskar.Puskar is 14 km way from Ajmer. Trip was made in 1/2 hour by local bus.Then we visited the Lord Brahma's sacred lake with 52 ghats. Lot of Foreigners were wandering across streets of town. Few chicks were quite sexy. The temperature was above 30. Solo Temple of Brahma and a Vishnu temple were only place to go. The above photo of no entry is of latter one. Hence,we return to Ajmer in evening.We were wandering till late night on the streets of Ajmer.Thus,2 places were toured by us.

Now,i will tell you about my experiences of the day. There is nothing enthralling in either Ajmer or Puskar. I was officially warned of pickpocketing in Ajmer at tomb. On visiting Puskar,I was filled by anti-religious feelings. Religion lacks spirituality at both places. If you are going to these places for search of peace,you are in mess;
Both Hindu and Islam are filled with orthodox elements. Priest clan in both religion were acting as a brokers between people and god. They were openly taking money for uttering Sanskrit(Vedas & Purans) and Arabic(Koran) versus. I was puzzled by the fact that why did not god know Hindi or Urdu for common masses. I was remembering Karl Marx in the streets filled with religious atmosphere. For novice readers, Karl Marx quoted"Religion is opium of masses". Spiritual walk at these holy shrines became disgusting for me.But, the world is a fine place and worth fighting for.