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Human nature embedded that every time we need to force the pace of change we may have to invent a crisis. Crisis emerged if not invented. So in the time of change, its turning out to be Black December for me...

1- Not selected in the written examination of IRMA by 2 marks.
2- Working hours per week increased by the company.
3- A big escalation of the team (partner in the crime) [Full frontal effect on Appraisal in March]

Failure in IRMA was shocker for me. Once again, a dream was shattered. The grieving will continue for a few days at least. I will vow never to day dream again. But of course I will, and once the pain recedes, I will be grateful for being here at this moment of life. Never say die..

"If you fail to plan, means you are planning to fail.."

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नीलोत्पल said…
Dude....dont lose heart. Keep working hard and you will be successful next time. DOnt stop dreaming either.... By the way I am also an Irman. Passed out more than 10 yrs back. Reached your blog by chance while looking for a link to IRMA. Take care..... Nilotpal
December 28, 2009 at 3:48 PM
Yayaver said…
Thank you very much Nilotpal for soothing word. Yes, I am also trying to shed negative energy around me and again go for IRMA with full swing. And, I will not stop dreaming...
December 28, 2009 at 5:56 PM
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